I can’t make decisions. There I said it. I like to think of myself as an independent thinker but I am just not that anymore. I like to have feedback. So today’s decision required a little prompting. The sun was shining and the thermometer hit somewhere around 70 degrees. Mcree was napping and Gress was having “quiet time” for an hour in his room because he just couldn’t sleep. I was FINALLY getting to my to do list of paying bills and balancing the 2 months of work accounting. I was feeling quite productive. But the voice in the back of my head kept reminding me that the beach was only 20 minutes away and it was practically summer outside. I pondered on the thought of packing the essentials and heading to the beach but quickly told myself that was an irresponsible thing to do a I had enough of my plate (I still had to make a meal for a family that just had a baby, make another desert for one of my favorite families, make lunch for a girls get together tomorrow, make a gift for a new baby, make our dinner, give the boys baths…and the list goes on, not to mention I was tired and had already attended storytime and the grocery before lunch). It was 3pm. Was I crazy? I asked Rad what he thought, which goes back to needing someone else to justify my decision. THANKFULLY he agreed with my spontaneous adventure and encouraged me to go. I quickly packed my bag (gave myself 5 minutes to get it all together and when the time was up, I had to go regardless of what I left behind). Let’s just say, it was EXACTLY what I (and Gress) needed. I smiled the whole way there. I got to be with my 2 boys in my favorite place.
I have been reminded so many times lately that life is short. Just today I heard 3 stories of people struggling, really struggling with their health and I don’t want to look back on my life and realize I missed out on the most important things…the people around me. I want to leave tasks undone if it means having moments of doing the things I love. I want to know my children…and know that what I do has impact in how they view a spouse, a friend, a follower of Jesus. My heart was full today.